Agreeing that “All things work together for good…“, I thank God for allowing my early tummy ache which made me wake up early. With that, I was able to read my Bible early in the morning (which happened eons ago since I do it in the evening) and had an early devotion. Aside from the refreshment it brought, I was happy as I go on smoothly with my daily routine. No hurries, no worries.
While doing my morning ritual of checking out the Tweets that I follow, I stumbled upon Sitti‘s and one of her updates says, “If you wait for perfect conditions, you will never get anything done.” This was inspired by the verse from Ecclesiastes 11:4 (Let me use the version from The Amplified Bible) which says,
He who observes the wind [and waits for all conditions to be favorable] will not sow, and he who regards the clouds will not reap.
Too many times, we came across circumstances where decisions are necessary; and not just simple decisions as what color of flip-flops you would wear or what hairstyle you would have today. Sometimes, decisions which we have to make is a matter of life and death (Yeah, exaggerated maybe.) – Life and death of a career; life and death of a relationship; life and death of a breakthrough.
Most of the time, we calculate too much – looking at our surroundings, checking if each strand of eyebrow is at place or if our shoes are well-polished, not knowing that there proves to be situations when getting caught open and willing to change and motion bears good results.
Waiting for the perfect time to come may not happen if that’s what holds you from doing whatever you need to do, or want to do. Unless you make an action or two, given the circumstances where you’re in, you could never move from where you are now.
Taking risks may cost you something, right. But would you rather learn from it or play it safe, waiting for the perfect time until never finding out what could have been? Your choice.
My friends know that I am not the best person to remember dreams. I seldom have them and most of the time, when I do, I forget everything that has happened. I would just probably remember if I had a good or bad one.
Anyway, the other night I dreamed. Haha! That was something unusual; for one, I feel like I’m awake while dreaming, and next, I remember some details when I woke up. How rare…
Before sleeping last night, I prayed so hard. I think I am, sort of, feeling something unusual. I don’t want to fall prey. Not that I resist but… I want to be ready.
Basta, the dream… It’s breathtaking! Haha! Or that’s how shallow I am. :p
Ever since I was a kid, I have known that the love life is really among the surfacing areas of my life in which I would want to give glory to the Lord. Even if there was a time when I was bound into the thinking that when I reach 15 “maybe I would already have a boyfriend” as if by that age, I am ready enough to face the responsibilities of a romantic relationship.
I came past 15 years old. I had my 18th birthday but still, no boyfriend has come my way. As being a normal human being, there would be times when I felt lonesome and undeserving. Although people see me as someone strong and someone not really bothered by being single-when-everyone-else-has-a-boyfriend, they never really found out how much struggle I am having inside thinking that I am no good for anyone else and that no one would really take me as I am.
I was already a believer during those times of struggle with myself on my life’s romantic segment (Hehe! What a great term to use, as if I am a tapeworm. OK, kidding, let’s get serious again.) I know God loves me but that sometimes was not enough of an assurance since God’s love is for everybody. Although many people think I do, I never really understand love the way it should be understood.
But God works in ways which could possibly not cross our minds. His grace encompasses all our shortcomings and limitations that I can say I was really captured by that love so real, I suddenly came to the realization that my ways are not His, and my thoughts aren’t either; that human will is powerful but not enough to get you through at times especially when the one you are against with is yourself. You need God. I needed Him like a helpless little creature; I need Him til now.
I thank God for keeping me. I was a witness for lives which were distracted (not destroyed because I believe in hope) because they did not allow God to take over – it’s either they thought I-could-do-this-I-have-self-control or they thought waiting is underrated; why not seize the day when you have all the chances on your hands? or I-was-forced-I-had-no-choice. But in all these excuses, they could have had a way out or could have had not fan the flame which came in uncontrollably.
Lots of them – people from my family whom I never thought could do it, did it; friends with which I shared those prayers with, asking God to see us through as we lift Him up in the area of our love life; school mates who were promising enough and who no one thought thinks about getting into such involvement; people from church whom I grew up with; people from school who are waaaaay younger than I am… The list is endless. There could have been more people I know who might be thinking that waiting is underrated and/or is not a sign of true love but of weakness and loser-ness, who has done it, of which I am not aware about; and they are just about in every corner of my eye.
It’s painful seeing these people I know decide for themselves to do such (or even if they would just say everything just happened, it is still saddening as it could be) outside its proper design by the Great Designer but I very well know that anger, or blame, is never the solution for me to get through them but love is – together with a prayer that someday, somehow, they would come to realize that waiting is never obsolete; and not all trends should be followed but challenged.
This blog entry was inspired by my friend Dianne‘s status message in Facebook which says that “waiting is not my fave thing to do!” which I counter-reacted with my Twitter entry saying that “believes waiting is an art. It may be tiresome, involve lotsa pain but in the end, you will find out what great masterpiece you could produce with it.”
Also, saw Josh Harris‘ Twitter where there will be a documentary which MTV will make on the purity movement where they are looking for ENGAGED couples saving first kiss on the altar. I’ve seen some replies from people from Facebook (some of them are testimonies from people who actually did save their first kiss until their I dos) and those were awesome! True proof that even if the world want us to take in what it dictates, we can definitely take a stand and make a choice. 😉
Day by day, God never fails to amaze me. It’s amazing how he reveals just anything to us.
I just came from the music team’s practice for tomorrow’s service and well, one of the songs lined up for tomorrow is a common one. Until we got to the bridge that says,
“You are the way, the truth and the life
We live by faith and not by sight for You…”
The second line was taken from a passage from 2 Corinthians 5. It showed me all the anxieties I am having because of the things I am seeing for the moment. And again, God has reminded me, “Trust me. Walk with me. Look at me and focus. Your presumptions are not my plans.”
One friend told me before, “…Waiting is the hardest part of it all.” I actually can’t relate since waiting has always been a part of my life; for a friend who has been late for almost (or sometimes, even more than) an hour, for the bus which can accommodate me on my way to certain place, for meetings which do not start on time, for people whom I need to hear just the right words from (Naks! May ganyan ba talaga dapat? Hahaha!) I’ve never grown tired of waiting… Or probably, I got used to it.
But as I was becoming (a little. Hahaha!) older, I realized that each moment is to be seized. What is here now may not be at the same place tomorrow, and time… it waits for no one (That’s a good, good quote I’ve gotten from some interesting movie!) And with that same realization, I asked myself, “Why do we always need to wait?” or better, “Why do I always need to wait?”
Then I came across the verse yesterday while I was having my morning devotion. True enough, I have a lot of anxieties but this revelation made me come back to my senses. Nothing is too late for God and everything will happen in a perfect time; our dreams, our hopes, our longings… Everything!
God is just at work with our patience and our faith. In the end of it all, it is a lot rewarding to receive something which you have worked (waited) hard for so long. And as each day passes by, you will learn to cherish it even better.