Today, we lost a dear aunt. She’s not actually my aunt but my uncle’s (father’s brother) wife. She has had several operations due to illnesses we never expected she had and my mind was fixated to the idea that she was on her way to recovery. She is. But we truly never know when this borrowed casket will need to take its rest.
I was chatting with my teammates over breakfast earlier when I received a message from my mother about what happened. And I was in shock because I was just telling the team about her complications. The evening before, I told myself I need to declare healing in the morning for I believe that she can get well. But my plans may not be His. My aunt breathed her last just a few hours after I said my prayers. Does God not answers prayers? Absolutely not. Only that the answers we expect may not be what is given to us.
What I learned after today is not about my aunt not getting well. Or how to cope up after a loss. Or how to be strong after such devastating situations.
But I learned that life here on earth is temporary. That sooner or later, all of us are headed home. That our journey while in our earthly form is an opportunity to touch others’ lives (My aunt’s a great mom and wife; great aunt to us though we’re not related by blood) and to declare God’s goodness. That who we live for in the temporary matters in eternity.
And yes, I believe in eternity. All of us choose where to head. I, myself, would like to go back home, and be together with my Heavenly Father who has set me where I am now, and the rest of my family, waiting for my return.
I woke up too early today due to sleeping early the other evening because of the cold weather. After browsing some things, I decided to go back to sleep since I still feel a little sleepy.
Then I was in deep slumber.
I know I was dreaming. First dream is that I was in the house of one of my friends and we’re having some girl bonding.
Next dream I was with my teammate. We were talking about baptism. I was explaining with her why in my faith, baptism is being done when you are old enough to understand because then you can decide what to believe in.
When I was about to explain why people are being submerged during baptism (see 2 Corinthians 5:17 for reference 😊), I felt someone trying to stop me and covering my mouth. I can’t open it and no words would come out! I felt something heavy in my shoulder as well! Now I know something is not right.
You know this is not the first time I dreamt of something like this. I used to just move around in bed trying to wear out whatever’s stopping me. I usually get out of the grasp but am too exhausted afterwards.
Earlier, as I was trying to “escape”, I was reminded that more than any power there is, Jesus’ name is more powerful. I rebuked the evil spirit in Jesus’ name! I can freely move afterwards.
Told this story to my sister when we both sat down. And she told me, yes, I was moving in my sleep, trying to utter words she cannot comprehend.
And I was fully made aware that now is not the time to be lax. Everyday is a battle for us. As Paul said in Ephesians 6:12: “For we[a] are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.”
One of the things that lingered to me during this morning’s church service is the side story about Jesus walking on water. (Matthew 14: 22-36)
There were several instances in the Scriptures where Jesus and His disciples were in the water. One of the most memorable is that during a great storm where the apostles were frightened when all the while, their Rabbi was fast asleep. Jesus calmed the storm (Mark 4:35-40) for them (and the disciples got a little bit “scolding” from Him.) But really, why all the fuzz? Why were they terribly terrified?
In the different stories I’ve encountered of Israelites in the Bible, generally speaking, prior to every success or victory is a failure. Now I ask myself, “Why the need for that? Isn’t God all-powerful and can deliver them from all the hindrances that go along the way?”
It’s been a long time since I was able to write a blog and here I am wanting to share to you something; something I have myself which the Lord exposed as well. 🙂
I was having my devotion this morning on the heroes of faith in Hebrews 11. As most of us are familiar with the passage, we see familiar names as well – there’s Abraham, Noah, Abel, Moses… The list could just go on.